Rants.

There's this girl. She is dumb.
She fell for this guy whom she will never get. But... she never gives up.
Even if one day she might be forgotten by him, she trusts that he didn't.
She always hugs her teddy bear to sleep, cause he is a bear.
She loves kitties, well indeed she does. And she got nicknamed as a kitty.
Kitty reminds him of her. Great.
That sounds sweet.
Everyday, she stays at whatsapp, hoping that his name would pop out in the notification.
It just doesn't sometimes, but she never stopped waiting, waiting and waiting.
She waited. She prayed. Still, it didn't come.
She still hopes for the best everyday.
Now, she tries to occupy up all her time, just hoping that she wouldn't think about him.
Just so she doesn't waste her youth or even her whole life waiting.
Everyday, or I should say most of HER days are occupied.
Why?
Cause in the past, she kept her days too free just hoping to match up his timings just to see him.
Now she learnt. She lived to her fullest.
No time to meet? Forget it.
You have the time to? I will check if my timings permits.
Now, she wants YOU to cherish her. Get it?
It doesn't matter to her anymore whether she should ask you out.
Because she is just waiting for you to ASK.
She is waiting and still waiting.
But it still doesn't matter to her whether you guys met, or whether you remembered her.
Because if you did, you would ask about her day and so on.
She doesn't want to act like that clingy girl anymore, cause you're taking her for granted.
She have her life to live. Want her, cherish her.
Don't use her as a substitue or just someone to help you kill time.
It sucks.
What if one day someone you liked/loved says actually they're using you to kill time?
You will understand her pain.
She loved you, she always did and she is still loving you.

Who is this dumb & foolish girl?
SHE is ME.
Yes, me. I'm too blinded in love, I've got too lost in the woods.
I found my way, I've got it straight.
You don't matter as much as you used to be.
Because now, I love my life the way it is.
I will wait for you to ask me out.
Till then, would you cherish my importance?
I hope you do. I hope you really do.
Cause I'm waiting.

Goodbye
xx.