sweet.

Thanks for today, it was great (: Barely less than an hour, I would officially declare it as the best time of my day today. You just made me feel so secure and protected ;) Thank you & misses.

Goodbye x.

...

Am I sad or what? Seeing him with the girl last night... wasn't a really good feeling. For once, I felt like I was the third party. Maybe I am. But.. based on what he told me last night, I doubt my judging ability once again. So.. am I supposed to get you before the others do? I really want to keep you by my side but.. at the same time, I don't want to deprive you of your freedom with your friends. I want you to be happy when you're with me. Don't want you to find me clingy or... whatever you know? Because this is the way I like you. I know you need your freedom. I hope that you won't find me too passive that one day you decide to just give up on me.
I WON'T CHANGE THIS MINDSET.

loved.

We are back to NORMAL (: IT'S A HAPPY GIRL LIFE AGAIN AND I'M GONNA CHERISH IT. Actually, I cherish every moment of it (: Till then, let me immerse in this world full of fantasy.

mixed feelings.

Yesterday...perhaps was my moodiest day I ever had. And.. guess what? That moodiest day I had came from him. Say that I'm paranoid or what, but I was struggling with myself the whole day yesterday, thinking if we would ever distant apart. He is a popular guy after all, and I'm a no one. Girls flutter around him, so I can't do anything except to stand from afar and look. I wouldn't want to limit him from interacting with the others after all, he needs his own space. Probably didn't whatsapp him for the whole of yesterday, I felt so empty suddenly. Hoping that we wouldn't revert back to strangers, but just hoping for the other one to whatsapp first.

I MISS YOU ):

Yes, I really do. But I ain't gonna whatsapp you today because I want to spend my time with my parents well today :) or unless... you decide to whatsapp me today on your own accord... I think I'm gonna be the happiest girl cause it shows that you thought of me in your mind. But on the other hand, he might be busy with his latest production so I wouldn't expect that to happen anyway. Just hope that his production would go well so that he is happy and so do I (: I hope to see him tomorrow...and spend time with him... but if the others are there.. the plan is gonna be a total fall through once again... ):
I hope that some part of you is true to me, because each time I see that girl waiting or eating with you... I get sensitive. But I will trust that part of you when you said you liked me better (:

I'M CHOOSING TO TRUST YOU FOR I'M TRUE TO YOU.

Dear granny, I hope you're doing well up there in heaven as well, looking and taking care of our family, blessing us with good health and peace among the family. I hope that you will bless me as well, that I can be closer with him... and that he would want to develop with me as well.
Thanks granny, am loving and missing you as always. xoxo

Goodbye x.