hurt...maybe.

I'm trying to be fine. Yes I am fine. To be honest, I cried a couple of moments ago. WHY?

Imagine this:
The person that you have interest in/liked/loved feels that you are a flirt. Says that right in your face. Damn, how hurtful can that be right? I swear I broke down in tears. But... I had to force a smile in front of my mom and my sister. I lost my appetite... even when eating my favorite ice cream used to be such a joy. I really hope that when he said he trusted me, it was for real. Not just trying to make me happy, but really for real. Come on, when I really admit that I like someone, I really do. I can meet you at night, even in the wee hours just for you. Why can't you just be convinced? Even when it comes to you saying that, you think it won't work out for the both of us. I can't decide when I'm born, neither can I decide whether to like you or not.

I think I'm a fool. At such a point of time, I chose to look on the positive side that, "Is he being jealous? Does he really feel for me that way?" Which I would be such a dumb ass and persuade myself to believe it that way. YES I'M DUMB, STUPID AND A FOOL TO STAND THERE AND LET HIS FRIENDS HIT ON ME RIGHT. I SHOULD JUST STAND AT THE ENTRANCE OF THE PARK. NOW, HOW AM I GONNA WORK NEXT SATURDAY SINCE I'M WORKING FOR HAP.

I really hope, and pray that he would trust me. Because his trust means everything to me.

goodbye x.